
I bought this ring because its imperfect. Its shape is unique, I haven’t seen one like it before. It’s a raw silver ring that’s attractiveness lies in its unfinished & flawed shape. I probably own about a dozen polished steel or silver rings. For the most part they all look the same except for minor differences. It doesn’t matter which one I pick out and wear, they all look pretty much the same.
Not this one. It stands out for its major differences. Its beauty is in its rough edges & imperfections. This ring has a lot of personal meaning for me. I bought it because I recognized how symbolic it was of myself.
I never used to view my imperfections as anything more than flaws. I questioned God many times for the way He made me. All I ever saw was my imperfect self. To me, that was who I was. I’ve come to realize I completely overlooked all of the amazing qualities I was given because all I could see was flaws.
Nowadays, I see my flaws as beautiful. I believe that one hundred percent. The ways that I am imperfect are so unique and they give me some pretty rare qualities to be honest. I have major differences from most everyday people. As a strong & emotionally intelligent man I stand out.
I never paid much attention to any of that. But I now realize how unique I am. And what an unusual and unique person at that. I wouldn’t trade that for anything – to be so different than that box of silver rings that all look the same.
I value myself. Very highly, nowadays for what I have to offer. Because I bring a ton of value to the table. There’s nothing arrogant or wrong in saying that. If everyone could get to that place in life this world would be a much better place. So much hurt in this world comes from feelings of worthlessness. That you don’t matter.
Today I no longer let anyone into my life, they have to pass qualifications first. They themselves have to be worthy of what I have to offer. Then we go from there.
Haven’t found anyone like that so far. But that’s ok. I can’t have anyone in my life right now anyway, because it would distract me from God’s mission & purpose in my life. God comes first, even above relationships.
One of the most important things I learned in learning my value was I could be completely happy with only myself. I used to say that, but those were just words back then.
Everyone says that to be honest. But I had to live it. And I had to prove it. To myself and myself only.
One day I’ll have the family, the partner in life, the spiritual soulmate I desire, but until then I’ll wait, for as long as it takes.
Because I’m worth it.