Portrait of Faith: Meisha

Meisha

Meisha was a refugee in a war-torn country.

His village and all he had ever known were destroyed by an oppressive army, and he was forced to become a porter, carrying the supplies of a soldier through a rainy jungle while staring down the barrel of a gun. Similar to in Jesus’s day when a Roman soldier forced a person to carry his gear for miles.

Then one day a soldier forced Meisha at gunpoint to dismantle a land mine. The mine exploded, and Meisha lost both hands and both eyes in an instant.

They left him there, thinking he was dead, but he did not die.

Several years ago, someone shared with him the story of the Gospel of Jesus and he identified with a God who knew his pain. His life was gloriously transformed. Meisha is now so excited about the Gospel that he has people lead him from refugee camp to refugee camp so that he can share the Gospel with those who have not heard about Jesus.

People who know him say that Meisha’s joy is infectious. He is far happier than most people who can see, have both hands, and don’t live in survival poverty in a refugee camp. His joy springs from his gratitude for the cross.

Meisha knows in a short time he will be with Christ forever.

Meisha models this by spilling out the joy of the Gospel in the middle of a refugee camp. He embodies the writings of the apostle Paul, who said,

“Our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all” (2 Corinthians 4:17).

NOTES:

Stories like Meisha’s are a reality check – for pretty much all of us, given we have lead a life of comfort our entire lives. We’re so blessed and so full of opportunity, yet how often do we act like we have nothing, when comparatively speaking our lives are a paradise that most others in this world can only dream of, and will neve have.

Its humbling to read stories of faith like Meisha’s, knowing that when things don’t go our way we’re ready to give up on God, to point a finger at Him for the least little thing that didn’t go our way.

There’s faith and there’s pure faith. I truly believe that someone like Meisha who has every reason in the world to curse God yet lives for the joy of spreading His word is an example of that. There’s a lot (myself included) we can all learn from stories like his.

WOD: Catching Thoughts

Catching Thoughts

One valuable lesson that I’ve learned my Salvation is I that I am under no obligation to keep anyone in my life. Anyone that doesn’t love & respect me, value their time with me, or share my vision in life will not have the privilege of being a part of it.

Its great strategy because you are in complete control of who you associate with, and by raising the standards of who you allow into your life you automatically raise the standards for yourself.

Don’t let yourself get dragged down by others. You are worth so much more than that.

How many of us should start by going through our contacts with that “swipe left, delete” move…?

Every time we are around them, or we scroll through social media its like we catch something.

We get in a certain mood, and can’t figure out, “How was I so happy three minutes ago, and now…?”

Have you ever had it switch that quickly?

It starts with a thought. Before you had that feeling you had a thought.

Sometimes that thought is just you going through your feed, and you’ll see something that won’t register.
Here’s the thing – you don’t feel it right away. Its later, after you’ve stopped.

Its like eating a whole bag of Oreos – you don’t feel sick while eating them, only after you’ve stopped.

Sometimes you are mad or upset about something that you saw 10 minutes ago on your phone… because you were in everybody else’s life but your own, trying to figure out, “Am I better than them? Are they better than me?”

Like the time I was scrolling and saw so and so having a cocktail party by the pool, and I know they’re in deep debt and can barely afford their lifestyle, so I caught a thought of judgment.

“Why should they live this fantasy life when I know they can barely pay their bills”

Now I feel sick 10 minutes later because of a thought I caught while I scrolled through somebody else’s situation that has nothing to do with my responsibility.

I’ll say that part again – somebody else’s situation that has nothing to do with my responsibility.

What happened to me was I caught a thought of offense, and then I reaped an attitude of frustration.

Or maybe I got offended the other day because I saw God blessing somebody he wasn’t supposed to bless.

Did you ever watch God just do something awesome for the wrong person?

And… He didn’t consult you!

Now here’s what happens: You become a victim of your own judgment. When you judge others that way, you judge yourself that way. So, when you catch a thought of judging others, don’t be surprised when the judgment comes upon you.

You can catch a cold, but you can also catch a thought. And it’s important where it came from, because where it comes from determines where it leads to.

For most people, we don’t hear God out loud, so we connect with God not on an auditory or sensory level; but we connect with Him at the level of thought. And that’d be great if He were the only one who spoke that way.

But we have this other one. They call him the Devil.

I’m not talking about a guy in a Halloween costume that he got on clearance at Target, walking up with a pitchfork and a cape and some horns.

The devil is not like that.

I’d just put him off my shoulder if he were. But he’s not on my shoulder.

When he comes to you or me, he comes through a thought.

So, we have God speaking to us through our thoughts AND we have the enemy trying to speak against what God spoke to us through our thoughts.

We have two voices inside of us, and sometimes we’re caught between a thought.

One is telling me, “Your greatest years are ahead of you.”

The other is telling me, “It’s over. You’ve amounted to nothing in life.”

One is telling me, “Go ahead and speak it and say it and do it and step into it and believe in it.

The other is telling me, “Well, you can’t pull this off. No one believes in you, you’re just a fraud who’s going to be embarrassed. If you climb high, they can pull you down.”

You see I got caught by a thought.

All the time I have this thought that goes through my mind that says, “It doesn’t matter.” I could be doing anything, and it will be like… “Who cares? It doesn’t matter. You don’t matter

Have you ever had that thought catch you while trying to do something?

“You’re not enough.”

I’ll bet you’ve probably felt that way more often than you’d like.

I even have a t-shirt that says, “You are Enough”

Because its true. Don’t ever forget that.

You matter. You are enough.

I think a lot of this is going around so much more now than it used to because now we don’t judge ourselves or measure ourselves according to the calling God has given us; we compare ourselves to a fictionalized account of somebody else’s life, their highlight reel on social media.

That’s where you always get into trouble.

And I’ve seen this happen too in my group – You always get in trouble when you start comparing your calling to somebody else’s.

When you compare callings, you catch insecurity.

When you compare callings, you catch insufficiency.

When you think, “I’m not enough…”

How many times have I sent away something God put in my life because I caught a thought – that I’m not enough?

Even sometimes when things are going great, you have this thought.

“It won’t last.”

“They’ll leave you too.”

“You can’t count on them.”

Then you sabotage the gift because you’re not secure in it, because even while it’s happening you don’t believe it’s real.

You know the verse:

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!” (PHIL 4:4 NIV)

“Rejoice in the Lord always.” Then Paul says, “I will say it again: Rejoice!”

Well, you can say it as many times as you want to, Paul. But I’m sad & depressed right now, and I can’t find my way out.

So we end up in those situations. Fighting on the level of our feelings, but before it became a feeling…

It was a thought.

Even Paul had to fight against opposing voices that undermined the grace of God in the gospel, even in the churches he started, like the church at Corinth.

He would write to that church, telling them that they were being led astray. The word he likes to use is ‘deceived’. He says, “I fear that you’re being deceived by the power of suggestion.” He uses the example… He says, “Like Eve was deceived by the Serpent.”

Do you remember that story?

When God said, “You can eat any of this,” and then she caught a thought from a snake. She allowed something that was beneath her to speak to her.

She caught a thought.

The Serpent said to Eve, “Did God really say that…?”

He introduces a doubt into the possibility and potential of faith, causing her to focus on what is not available, rather than what is.

Paul says, “I’m afraid that you will be deceived.” There are these spies in the church at Corinth, and they’re leading the Christians astray.

How are they doing it? By the power of thought.

They are introducing the thought into the church that you need something other than Christ to justify your life. That same thing goes on today.

What happens is the Enemy deceives you. He can’t take what God gave you… The devil has no power to take away anything that God gave you.

Make sure you know that.

So he can’t take what God gave you, but if he can get you to catch a thought that opposes it, he can keep you so weak, so doubting you will not walk into it.

Or he’ll use his favorite tactic nowadays – distraction. If he can keep you so distracted that you never hear God’s calling, then those seeds God planted in you will never grow, never produce fruit. Think the parable of the Sower, in Matthew 13.

The spiritual battleground is your mind. And the front line is your thoughts.

I wrote this in my notes back in January. Its very relevant here:

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Jan 23 2022

Most of life‘s battles are either won or lost in the mind.

You cannot have a positive life if you have a negative mind. Why? Because your life is always moving in the direction of your strongest thoughts.

Victory isn’t what’s happening around you it’s what’s happening in your mind. It doesn’t matter about your situation around you, it doesn’t matter about your past, your family matters, your genetics, what’s been done to you, what’s been spoken to you, what you’ve done, what you haven’t done.

Victory is about the state of your mind and the enemy knows this so his main focus in your life is to attack your thoughts.

And if he can win the battle of your mind he can win the battle of your life.

You don’t need this situation to improve – you don’t need circumstances to change – you can step in to victory tonight by changing the way you think right now.

Pay attention to your thoughts!

Phil.

There’s a lot to this story.

God will put people into your life at random moments that are perfectly matched for that moment of time in your life. I am certain of that. I’ve seen it happen so many times now, I’ve almost lost count – but each and every one has a meaning and a purpose in your life, and theirs as well.

That’s kinda what life is about.

So on Saturday afternoons I ride my bike at the park and I’ve seen this guy a few times now. He’s always wearing his black socks and loafers, you can’t miss him.

Today I saw him at the outdoor gym area hanging from the monkey bars, and not just hanging but literally swinging back and forth.. I don’t think I’ve ever seen a guy his age do something like that.

To me that’s intriguing and unusual – so I went over and introduced myself. His name is Phil. He is 78 years old. Turns out Phil also owns a skate board, a Santa Cruz as he puts it, a ‘quality board’.

I’m familiar with that, and he’s right those are boards the pros use. But Phil is 78. I asked him how it was going and he said good.. he was working on his balance so that he could ride it someday.

He told me that he started coming out here because he told himself, “Phil, stop feeling sorry for yourself and get out of bed and do something.”

Already I like this guy’s attitude, because most elderly people his age are literally resigned to the fact that their life is basically over. I know more than a few people my age that are already starting to feel like that.

It was kinda shocking, actually to see him literally swinging from the monkey bars.

Turns out that Phil is a very spiritual person. I’m not really sure how we got on the subject but regardless that is where the conversation went.

Phil explained to me how he and his friend have been studying the bible for years and it is his goal for people to see the practical side of Jesus. We talked a good bit on that and he said something that really struck me.

He said, “You know faith is important, but its not the most important thing..” I asked him what he meant, and what was most important?

He said, “Trust”

Well yesterday’s sermon I wrote was originally titled, “Trust.”

Its about how most Christians practice faith as a form of manipulation.. “If I do this and believe.. then God will do that.”

That faith was a way of controlling outcomes in our life.

I told him this and he said “Yes! You get it!

During our talk he told me that I looked exactly like his 19 year old son, that I was the spitting image of him.

I thought that was kind of odd, I did the math on that one and it didn’t add up.

Phil told me he probably had lots of reasons to give up on life and to be bitter etc. I asked him what he meant by that.

Phil’s son was killed in a car crash 30 years ago. He told me it took him a decade to come to terms with losing him. And what conclusion he finally came to was this…

Although it ruined his life, he said it did not ruin him as a person..

Be like Phil folks.

Fighting for a Cause: Men (Part 1)

NOTE: These are my thoughts as I go through “Heart of a Warrior” and put down into words its message and theme to help men reclaim their identity – as Kingdom men who stand firm in their faith and are willing and able to serve Christ and the greater good of this world.

Fighting for a Cause & a Calling in Life

A big part of my calling is to help men. Last August I made notes on it, “Blueprint of a Leader”. However, at the time, with so much going on in my life there was no way I could put together anything to help other men when what I needed most was to help myself.

Kind of like on the plane when you’re supposed to put on your own oxygen mask before you help others with theirs.

At the time I had reached out to a friend of mine who had a men’s group I had attended and asked for some advice on starting my own. Allen said to me, “You just need a good devotional and a desire to lead, and remember, always lead with love.”

Aside from the part about leading with love, I’ve come to realize that is a little off track.

I understand where he is coming from, though. Pretty much every church’s men’s group is like that – A good devotional, some scripture and some discussion.

I think I knew instinctively when I first put down my thoughts on it that men needed a ‘Blueprint’ as the title of my notes said, but that’s all I knew at that time.

Back then I didn’t view his advice as wrong. In fact, I thought it was great advice.

But there’s so much more to it, here’s why:

The go-to church method for dealing with men doesn’t produce engaged men. It doesn’t produce grounded men. It doesn’t produce trained men. Instead we arm him with a few bible verses and a weekly speech then send him off to a life group in someone else’s home where its assumed he will connect by talking with other men about that week’s speech.

What so many men get out of this is they have to do a better job in life. And they have to do more.

And then what? How?

Well, that’s pretty much where things stop. Well, you know you have to do a better job so go do it. Just be like Jesus… And that message is coming from someone else too – who is telling them about God and not coming their own relationship with Him.

The training they’re getting is…? Certainly not the life changing journey of personally walking with God.

Is that the best we can do?

Men are lost. Looking in wrong direction for initiation and validation. Turning to culture for answers to core questions about life and who they are.

A man should bring who he is to the world around him, not get his identity from it.

Men need to be equipped, guided, then deployed by God and remain in partnership with him, entering into battles for causes in this world, worthy & meaningful causes, and fight for the hearts of others. Every man should learn to see himself as a warrior – one that needs a cause and a (heavenly) King. Something he can fight for and someone he can fight with (i.e. at his side).

Because men were created this way. It is who men are. The story we are living in today is of war and conflict, both spiritual & physical. Men, real men are desperately needed who can bring kingdom ways into every aspect of his life and every situation. Especially his homefront.

Why does everything have to be such a fight? Because it is. That’s the reality of life – and one thing I’ve finally accepted. You have to step up and fight for what you want.

A real man knows how to fight with love and for love.

It took Salvation for me to know that, to be honest. But I think it might be the single most important thing I’ve learned about being a man.

That’s the thing, I know how valuable all this is to men. Me who are lost. Because I was one of them. And had been my entire life.

When I was saved, I saw disbelief everywhere. I would hear, “I hope that it is true.” I never followed up on that. Never felt the need to. Never will. I don’t need to explain myself to anyone.

Because that truly doesn’t matter to me. The point is I have nothing to prove, nothing to hide, and nothing to fear. My actions in this world speak for me and that’s all that counts.

I have an identity. I know who I am. I am a beloved son of the Father. And I find my security & strength in that identity alone.

I know where I am in life. God opened my eyes. To see and hear what is going on around me. And I am alert to the spiritual forces at work behind physical circumstances. Let me tell you – its pretty amazing what Salvation can do.

I have a mission & purpose. One that comes straight from a Heavenly King alive & working in my life. I am always alert and looking for the good God is doing in my life and through my life. I trust God completely that He will open the doors for me in everything – at just the right place and just the right time.

As the saying goes, God may not be early, but He is never late. And it’s my job to recognize that and go through those doors when they open.

I’ve seen it happen time and time again. It is real. Someday I’ll even meet my person like that. I believe in that one hundred percent.

Nowadays if someone doesn’t like me for who I am, I’m ok with it. Because I love myself & I know God loves me more than I’ll ever be able to know. As a man I can’t tell you how critical that is – to receive a father’s love & to love yourself, so that you can not only love others, but fight in every aspect of life – with love & for love.

What’s amazing is all this started with a five-dollar audio book that God put in front of me. It took about a month, but I kept seeing it over and over until I finally clicked on it and saw it was only 5 bucks and said what the heck, I can afford to waste that if its no good. I honesty don’t think I would have bought it if it had been 20 dollars. Not surprisingly it turned out to be the foundation of what my calling is.

I’m slowly making it into a program, expanding on its ideas using my own testimony & personal experiences in life.

A man’s life is a journey. It is the result of discovering & rediscovering oneself, time after time, failure after failure, success after success, through the grace & effectiveness of walking with God and living a purpose driven life.

Praise and Glory to GOD!

WOD: Eternal

SESSION NOTES:

We had a great workout. We did battle ropes, leg work, and did a trail run. Two new members came out, I am so grateful for that. Even more so that my words of faith at the end had personal meaning for them. That makes everything worth it. Its why I do this.

Word of the Day (WOD):

Eternal

I was fortunate that I was never one of the spiritually dead of this world. That said, I always had one foot in the door of God’s will and the other foot in this world. In short, I served two masters. You can’t do that. Trust me on that one.

Sooner or later one of those masters in going to come calling. It was almost the devil, but God stepped into my life in a monumental way and saved me from a life that would have only ended in bitterness, disappointment and maybe even eternal damnation.

In my opinion I think it’s actually much worse to serve two masters than to be one of the spiritually dead.

That said, I often wonder why so many people remain dead to the spirit of God within them.

I think that’s because God is a bigger story than most people can imagine. Its so big for most, they cannot realize it, and how hard it must be to believe in the possibility that God could step into human history, into our story through His son Jesus Christ.

To actually take on flesh and blood and become human. That’s a lot to believe.

If I could pinpoint the source of all this, I’d say it’s because we are temporal beings living in a temporary world trying to grasp the eternal.

Andy Warhol, the pop icon of the 1960’s once said, “I’ve got these desperate feelings that nothing means anything.”

Its those feelings of emptiness & desperation – that that nothing really means anything & everything we’re doing in this life is probably just a waste of time.

Its amazing actually that he said that, because here you have this guy who’s attained everything in life imaginable. The fame, wealth, recognition, etc. that all of us want

And yet he has this desperate feeling that none of this means anything – at all.

I think we’ve all felt like that. Felt as if you’re just trying to find something that matters. Something of significance. Something that gives you meaning.

The thing is, it doesn’t matter whether its fame, more fame, wealth, more wealth, or power, or more power – no matter how much you have it always somehow leaves you empty.

The trap here is we see ourselves as temporary beings. Even many Christians fall into this because
the temporary nature of this world gives us this momentary meaning of everything. And what we desperately want, what we strive so hard for is something that we can touch and see and feel and taste.

We’re so satisfied with temporary things. We dream of them. They are our life goals. The reason we get up out of bed each day and work so hard.

Dreaming of owning mansions, travelling the world, private jets, fabulous cocktail parties. We feel so satisfied by these things.

Even the things that are not supposed to be temporary, like love we move on from. From relationship to relationship to relationship – we’re never fulfilled, but we’re so satisfied.

We really do see ourselves as temporary beings. And how can you believe in a forever love if you’re just a temporary being? I’ve been there and have some broken dreams to prove it.

Its just human nature, to do everything we can to distract us from the harsh reality that everything in this world has an expiration date including us. But there’s always the next new temporary experience waiting for us tomorrow, and the next day and the next, on and on and on – filling us for the moment before it evaporates like a drop of water in the eternal sunlight of our souls, leaving the same old barren, empty landscape within us. When Jesus spoke of springs of living water flowing from within us, this is what He’s talking about. (thank you Holy Spirit for those words)

But why do we keep looking for the eternal in the temporary?

it’s like a shell game and every time you pick a shell there’s nothing underneath. Then another shell – nothing. And another shell – nothing. And another…

It’s because we’re looking everywhere except where it is.

If that sounds really oversimplified – it’s not.

I love this point from Pastor Erwin McManus, its very fitting – Did you ever wonder why Jesus made declaration, “Eli, Eli, lama sabachthani?” which means, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” He did it to let us know that when we find ourselves abandoned and so empty that he understands exactly where we are..

Solomon felt with way too at the end of his life. If you study Solomon you know he wrote 3 books, roughly in chronological order with his life. Song of Solomon, Proverbs, and Ecclesiastes.

At the end of his life, despite his Kingdom & all his wealth, 700 wives, and 300 concubines, he begins the book of Ecclesiastes with:

“The words of the Teacher, son of David, king in Jerusalem:

“Meaningless! Meaningless!”
says the Teacher.
“Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless.”

Thats pretty powerful. In a sense Solomon felt just like Andy Warhol. Maybe we could all take a lesson from that.

So where is it then? Where are we looking but just can’t find it.

Where God placed it – within you

He placed the eternal within us, but somehow we’ve lost it. And that longing that craving that
frustrating never-ending desire to find a reason to be alive – that’s your soul saying you were born for the eternal but all you’re feeding it is the temporary pleasures of this world.

God didn’t send Jesus into this world to give you principles to be a better human being, he didn’t come to upgrade your status life, he didn’t come to make life a little easier –

He came to convince you that what you think is life is just existence at best.

And when you invite God into your life, when you enter into relationship with God, he doesn’t just make you better – He makes you alive.

He’s trying to convince us that we’re not just temporary creatures with an expiration date, but we
are eternal creatures created in his image & likeness. That’s huge. But its so hard for God to convince us of this.

We were created by God for love, created for hope, created for laughter and joy, created to enjoy the beauty and wonder of this world (His creation).

This is controversial, but I am convinced now that stress & anxiety and depression and fear & despair in life is your soul’s longing for the eternal that’s lost within you. I lived my entire life with depression & anxiety and nothing I ever did could fill the emptiness & despair that crippled my life. It cost me everything, relationships, jobs, the people I loved most.

When I was saved, it didn’t happen immediately, but gradually over time as my eyes were opened to the eternal truths of the Lord, depression & anxiety faded, and now a little less than a year later I do not suffer from these anymore. I thank God every day for that. I have such an unbelievable feeling of fulfillment in my life, in my soul. I can’t put it in words really.

Jesus died on the cross & rose from the dead, so that two thousand years later we could know this truth.

If you’re looking for that which is lost, that eternal, that fulfillment, that peace – I promise you, the path will start with one simple declaration:

“Jesus, I give you my life.”

When you say those words, you’re choosing to cross that line of faith, to go from darkness into light from spiritually dead to etnerally alive.

You’ll find a brand-new life, and one that for the first time in your life will feel like you are living a life that matters.

Imperfections.

I bought this ring because its imperfect. Its shape is unique, I haven’t seen one like it before. It’s a raw silver ring that’s attractiveness lies in its unfinished & flawed shape. I probably own about a dozen polished steel or silver rings. For the most part they all look the same except for minor differences. It doesn’t matter which one I pick out and wear, they all look pretty much the same.

Not this one. It stands out for its major differences. Its beauty is in its rough edges & imperfections. This ring has a lot of personal meaning for me. I bought it because I recognized how symbolic it was of myself.

I never used to view my imperfections as anything more than flaws. I questioned God many times for the way He made me. All I ever saw was my imperfect self. To me, that was who I was. I’ve come to realize I completely overlooked all of the amazing qualities I was given because all I could see was flaws.

Nowadays, I see my flaws as beautiful. I believe that one hundred percent. The ways that I am imperfect are so unique and they give me some pretty rare qualities to be honest. I have major differences from most everyday people. As a strong & emotionally intelligent man I stand out.

I never paid much attention to any of that. But I now realize how unique I am. And what an unusual and unique person at that. I wouldn’t trade that for anything – to be so different than that box of silver rings that all look the same.

I value myself. Very highly, nowadays for what I have to offer. Because I bring a ton of value to the table. There’s nothing arrogant or wrong in saying that. If everyone could get to that place in life this world would be a much better place. So much hurt in this world comes from feelings of worthlessness. That you don’t matter.

Today I no longer let anyone into my life, they have to pass qualifications first. They themselves have to be worthy of what I have to offer. Then we go from there.

Haven’t found anyone like that so far. But that’s ok. I can’t have anyone in my life right now anyway, because it would distract me from God’s mission & purpose in my life. God comes first, even above relationships.

One of the most important things I learned in learning my value was I could be completely happy with only myself. I used to say that, but those were just words back then.

Everyone says that to be honest. But I had to live it. And I had to prove it. To myself and myself only.

One day I’ll have the family, the partner in life, the spiritual soulmate I desire, but until then I’ll wait, for as long as it takes.

Because I’m worth it.

On Faith, Forgiveness & Accountability

I was reflecting on a decision I made recently about a situation that I prayed very hard for about receiving guidance. I prayed to the Lord to show me the right path to take.

In one of those rare occasions, God’s voice spoke directly to me about it. It was short, He told me exactly what I needed to do in the situation.

With the guidance I needed, it was up to me to fill in the details that fit and take whatever action was necessary to fulfill God’s words.

In short it was to contact someone about an apology letter I had written, praying to the Holy Spirit for guidance in my words. That they be honest, truthful, and compassionate. It was written solely for this person, but it was also the much-needed forgiveness I needed for myself and that I’ve wanted to give to the whole situation for months.

I can’t tell you how many times I prayed to God to let me forgive and put all the anger, hurt, and resentment out of my heart. I never could get there, however, no matter how many times I tried.

I understand now why that is. Forgiveness is a step-by-step process and forgiveness cannot come until you are able to take the first step of accountability for your own actions, whatever situation it is. Once I was able to own my role in the situation, stop passing blame, and hold myself accountable, the words I needed to say came out on paper and the burden was lifted off of my shoulders.

I hold myself accountable in this life. I hold myself to a very high standard. Its part of having integrity. I wasn’t able to do that before my salvation. I am very grateful for the spiritual gifts I received from the Lord when I gave myself to Him.

Accountability & ownership in life is like adding a layer of barbwire to your boundaries. Its like an extra layer of reinforcement because you know that if you let others or even yourself violate your boundaries, YOU will be the one held accountable. And that’s no one else’s fault but yours.

True forgiveness is always the goal. There are 3 levels you that must go through in the process of forgiveness before (as a believer) it can be fully complete.

The first level of forgiveness is forgiving someone in your mind. This is where you say the words, “I forgive you”. You can even convince yourself that’s the case by saying things in your mind over and over like “I’m so happy I’ve forgiven you..” etc. But you haven’t. Eventually, the anger, resentment, and hurt always finds a way to creep back in. And you repeat the process over and over never getting anywhere. There’s no letting go & there’s no healing in this place. I’ve known it very well.

The second level of forgiveness is forgiving someone in your heart. This is a critical step and it means you’ve let go. Let go of the incident or whatever, and released yourself from the emotional prison you built. Because that’s what it is. Hold onto the hurt & anger long enough and those wounds will become permanent scars.

The older I get the more people I seem to know who are carrying these scars. They never could fully let go and heal. Its very sad. It breaks my heart because I know its too late. Releasing these emotions from your heart allows you the freedom to move on with your life. Onwards to better things in store for you.

The third level of forgiveness is forgiving someone in your soul. This is true forgiveness. This cannot happen without faith. Most people will never reach true forgiveness, which is very sad. It allows you to not only let go, but to have compassion for the individual no matter how badly they hurt you. Knowing that we are imperfect beings and as such we act in ways that are of this world, and not the spirit.

In other words, when Jesus Christ said, “Forgive them Father for they know not what they are doing.” this is the response we as Christians should also have. To love them in spite of their actions because they are simply following their own human nature.

True forgiveness can only possible if you can say with absolute certainty, “I cast this upon your shoulder’s Heavenly Father.”, knowing that God will always seek justice on your behalf and His response will divinely perfect regardless of what you think the outcome should be. “It is in your hands, Heavenly Father.”

“Not my will be done, but yours Lord.”

If you can say this and truly believe it you will have more freedom & healing than you ever thought possible. To love your enemies in spite of their actions, and do it with all your heart and soul is the very definition of Christ’s love.

And Its faith that builds the bridge to the soul that makes this possible. Without faith, there cannot be true forgiveness in life.

WOD: God’s Schedule

SESSION NOTES:

We had a good AM workout. Our new member was there and I got to work with her one on one and help her along her journey. That’s what its about.

Word Of the Day (WOD):

God’s Schedule

How many of us have a schedule of how we want things to be in our lives?

Spoiler Alert: God doesn’t check your schedule.

For that matter, neither does the devil. The Devil doesn’t look and say, “Would it be all right if I stopped by at 3:30 Tuesday afternoon and visit you with depression, anxiety, a panic attack, and shortness of breath?” No. The heavenly realms don’t operate on a human schedule. But we as humans, that’s so hard for us to accept

You have to stay in a place where you know how to breath in the presence of God. A place where you are looking at the presence of God.

The apostle Paul knew this very well. I wrote a post about it, “Paul’s faith”

Paul was aware of the presence of the almighty God with him.

Its written in Psalms as well,

“I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth.” (PS. 121:1-2 ESV)

When God comes calling and wants to reset your schedule, will you let him?

You see when God comes into the middle of your life, you’ve got all these things going on and – boom. Your now on His schedule. And its almost like He’s saying “let me make it up to you.” “I’m going to do exceedingly & abundantly above what you had on your schedule.” and He’s also saying “Let me get you ready for what I’ve got in store for you.”

How many of us are in that get you ready phase? Yet we want our own schedule.

If you are really going to trust the Lord, trust Him with all your heart – then you’ve got to move with Him.

When it happens it really doesn’t matter what your schedule is. What matters is what God spoke about you before you were even born. Abraham tried to have a baby with Hagar because He got tired of waiting on God’s schedule.

Its almost like God is saying, “Stop trying to schedule me. Build your own schedule but realize that some of the best things I’m going to do in your life are not going to be on your schedule.”

The greatest blessings in life are unschedulable.

If you’re stuck on what you thought this stage of life would look like or be, or maybe even what you thought your day would be like, you are going to miss the gift. You have to wait on the gift.

God wants you to depend on Him

When God is resetting our schedules, what we’re calling interruptions are really invitations.

When Jesus said to Jairus, “Don’t be afraid. Just believe.” When He got to the house, his little girl was dead to the other people. But to Jesus she was just sleeping, because He has His own schedule.

Heaven has a schedule. Heaven has a purpose. Heaven has a blueprint.

How many times have we sent our schedule to the Lord just to say, “Lord, I want to reschedule this.”? That time were so stressed out, or depressed, or so confused. And your trying to control the timing, to control the schedule.

We serve an unscheduable God. And we need to thank Him for unschedulable blessings.

We can’t control how things unfold in our lives, so we just have to wait. Not because we’re lazy, but because we know God loves us.

Some of the best stuff God will do in your life will not be on your schedule.

So when your waiting for the gift. Ask God, say to Him, “You give me the direction, and I’ll supply you with the details.”